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Sunday, February 26, 2017

Visions of the Real World



 
Most biblical scholars agree that the New Testament book of Second Peter was not written by Peter.  Near the end of it there is a reference to “all the letters of Paul” that implies not only that those writings have been gathered into a collection, but that they also have achieved the status of Holy Scripture.  Which are things that did not take place until long after the Apostle Peter was dead.  For this and for other reasons, the general consensus is that this was the last book of the Bible to be written, and dates from well into the 2nd Century. 
Taking that into account, it seems strange that this morning’s reading from Second Peter stakes such a strong claim to being eyewitness testimony.   “We were not just passing on clever myths that someone made up,” it says, “when we told you about the power of Jesus and his coming.  We saw his glory with our own eyes.  We heard the voice of God with our own ears when it said, ‘This is my Son, my Beloved, with whom I am well-pleased.’  We were there with Jesus on the mountaintop.”  
So was the person who wrote these words lying?  Was he putting forward what some today might call “alternative facts?”  Well, the simple answer is “yes.”  But as with most things pertaining to the Bible, the simple answer isn’t really satisfactory.  It only opens the door to a lot more questions.  And there is ongoing, robust academic debate about all sorts of historical problems related to the authorship of Second Peter and other New Testament books that seem to have been written under the names of people who did not in fact write them. 
But for me as a preacher those historical-critical problems, though worth thinking about, are less important than the questions about what the texts themselves are trying to say.  And the way I see it, even if this author knew that his audience understood perfectly well that he was not the Apostle Peter, he wrote it as if it’s what Peter would say in the present circumstances if he were here.
If you read Second Peter as a whole, you’ll see that its context is an argument with other religious teachers.  And the beef it has with those teachers is that they seem to have relaxed any tension between being a Christian and just kind of going with the flow of business as usual in the world as we know it.  They are teaching that the conventional world is not going to change much, for the better or the worse, so the point of religion is to accommodate you successfully to the world: to looking out for number one, and getting rich, and doing whatever it is that seems like it will make you feel good at the moment. 
But if Peter were here, he wouldn’t stand for this.  He would say that God has called us to expect more from life than that.  He would tell us that, in fact, God has promised to radically transform the world as we know it, and to transform us along with it, so that we become sharers in the very nature of Godself.
And Peter would remind us that our faith in these promises is grounded in concrete historical experience.   Certain people got to see and hear for themselves, in a real time and a real place, what we will be like when God transforms us.  They were able to do this because they were disciples of Jesus.  In his presence, they caught a vision of what the world really is and what God really means for it to be, and how a person speaks and acts who really understands the difference and wants the world and God’s purpose to be reconciled. 
The author of Second Peter could have chosen any of the well-known Gospel stories to make a case for the unique authority that comes from having been there as an eyewitness.  But he chose the one we read from Matthew today, the story of the Transfiguration.  And I think this is because it’s the one episode in the gospels that focuses entirely on a few disciples and a transient revelatory moment in their experience of Jesus.  Jesus himself doesn’t do anything remarkable in the story.  It is Peter, James, and John who see him talking to Moses and Elijah.  It is they who see the vision of his face transfigured and shining like the sun.  It is they who are enveloped in the cloud of light and who hear the heavenly voice.  It is they who fall down on their faces like dead men, and then lift up their eyes to see no one but Jesus alone.
And as they are going down the mountain to rejoin the rest of his disciples, Jesus tells them not to speak of it until after he has risen from the dead.   So the whole thing kind of feels like a dream, like a shamanic journey to another world, and we have only the word of Peter, James, and John to tell us that it really happened.  And that might be the whole point.  Because it is of such rare material that we often must construct our faith. 
In a lifetime we may have only a few fleeting glimpses of the glory that God intends for us, a precious handful of moments on the mountaintop.   Or we may feel as if we’ve never been there, and depend on the testimony of hardier souls to tell us what it’s like.  And yet such moments, even second-hand, impress on us such a radically-different vision of reality, that they haunt us.  The longing they awaken for a greater significance to our lives, the discontent with a shallow materialistic existence they leave behind, often have to be enough—enough to sustain us through long periods of just going through the religious motions, wondering if it’s all a sham. 
Second Peter tells us that this is actually providential.  It helps us avoid mistaking the lamp we have been given to guide us on the path for the glorious dawn toward which we are going.  And it teaches us to measure the worth of our mountaintop experiences by the lives we live every day down here in the suburbs.  Which is also goes for our efforts at religious discipline.  
At the Zen temple we used to have seven- or ten day meditation intensives called sesshin, which is Japanese for “gathering the mind.”  During sesshin we would sit upwards of twelve or thirteen periods a day of silent meditation, interspersed with walking meditation and services of chanting and prostrations.  We would eat in silence at our seats in the meditation hall.  Except for a daily sermon and an optional brief, private conversation with one of the teachers, there was no talking.  There was no reading or writing during the breaks after meals. 
I can still vividly remember certain moments that occurred twenty-five years ago during sesshin, moments in which exactly nothing happened.  You could say they were moments on the mountaintop.  But our teachers used to tell us that the point of sesshin is to realize that your whole life is sesshin.   And we could say something like that about the Christian season of Lent.  The point of Lent is to realize that your whole life is Lent. 
During these forty days every spring we intensify our effort to pay attention, to let go of what is not essential, to purify our bodies and minds, to take less and pray more, and remember those whose needs are more pressing than our own.  But our purpose is not simply to “get through Lent” and move on, but to remember some basic spiritual truths to carry with us throughout the remainder of the year.  We do not approach Lent like convicted criminals being marched into prison to serve our time.   We come as those returning to the valley from the mountaintop, as those who have seen the glory of God’s beloved Son, who have felt his healing touch, and heard him say to us, “Get up; do not be afraid.”
If we come to Lent seeking silence, it is because we know there are some things for which words are inadequate.  If we come for instruction, it is because we’ve heard the voice that tells us to listen to God’s beloved.  If we come to repent, it is because we have seen the glory for which we are created, and which we have stubbornly refused.  If we come praying and fasting for justice, it is because we know that another world is possible.              

Sunday, December 25, 2016

Gift and Sign



Nativity, 1311-1320 - Giotto 
Thirty years ago next month, I went to live at a sort of New Age commune in Massachusetts, where I worked on the construction of a new community center building in exchange for a bed in a dormitory and all the vegetarian food I could eat.   In the original house that came with the property there was an upstairs room that had been set aside for meditation, and it was there that I first began a daily practice of sitting down for a half hour before and after work to be silent and still.  And tonight I’m remembering one evening in that room when I experienced a kind of release in my breathing, an opening that began in my sternum and spread of the back side of my rib cage into my abdomen, an expansion of my body and my mind.
And afterward, as I walked out into the summer evening, down the country road to the neighbor’s house where the community dinner was happening that night, savoring the soft light and the sweet air, a thought came to me about air, about oxygen and the gases that I was breathing in and out—the thought that had also breathed.  Over the course of his lifetime, he breathed in and out countless atoms of this same atmosphere.  And have been dispersed by the ceaseless circulation of the elements, and mixed throughout the living system of the earth, so that it seemed likely to me in that moment that every breath I tooked must contain at least one atom that had also been breathed by Jesus.
Of course, I could have reasonably said as much about every other person, even every other creature, that has ever lived.  But in that moment it was the thought of sharing the breath of Jesus, that filled me with a sense of wonder, and quiet joy, and peace.  Which was strange, because I didn’t think of myself, then, as a Christian.  Now that I’ve attended church for twenty years, and been baptized, and graduated seminary and been ordained a priest, I can interpret that evening’s experience using theological language that wasn’t available to me at the time.  But I can’t improve on the freshness of that intuition, spontaneously arising from the life of my body, and what it said to me about Jesus. 
His was the life of a human body, in common with everyone on earth.  He breathed the same air, and ate the same food, the same blood ran in his veins, the same pains of mortality shadowed his days.  And yet there was something about his particular body, which transformed the very substance of this world.  By entering into it, taking it into himself, giving it back again to the shared matrix of life, he charged every aspect of earthly existence with new power and meaning.  And to those with the heart to receive it as a gift from God through him, he gave the world divinity.  This giving began at Christmas, on the night that Jesus took his first breath.
This makes Christmas different from the other birthdays of important people we commemorate on the calendar.  In no other case do we say that their births were, in and of themselves, significant.  On January 15th, for example, we do not gather to tell the story that begins, “When Calvin Coolidge was President, and Dr. L. G. Hardman was governor of Georgia, at the family home in Atlanta, Alberta King gave birth to her middle child, a son.”  We don’t do that, because to our minds there wasn’t anything particular extraordinary about the birth of Martin Luther King, Jr.  Whatever importance it has derives from the achievements of his later life, when he became a man. 
But the Gospel of Luke, which we hear tonight, and the Gospel of Matthew, which has a different version, tell stories that are full of the conviction that even the birth of Jesus was extraordinary.  Not that that Jesus himself did anything unusual.  He was simply born, as we all were born: he took his first breath; no doubt he cried.  Maybe he lay on his mother’s breast and tried to nurse.  She swaddled him tightly in a blanket and he slept.  Jesus’ birth was not significant because of anything he exceptional he did, but because of who he was.  His mere existence was already a gift to the world, and a gift does not become a gift because of anything the gift does.  It is a gift because of the intent of the one who gives it.
 And also because someone receives it.  The climax of Luke’s Christmas gospel is the angel’s promise to the shepherds that if they go to Bethlehem they will see a sign, a sign confirming angel’s good news about the birth of the Messiah, about peace on earth and God’s favor to all.  Tonight we didn’t go on to read the rest of the story, which talks about how the proclamation of the angels was received: how the shepherds did go and did find the baby lying in the manger; and how they told everyone what they had heard concerning the child, and went away praising and glorifying God; and how Mary took in everything the shepherds said, and treasured their words in her heart.   
For those shepherds the infant was the sign of God’s gift of life and love to the world, and they received the gift.  And this giving and receiving is the whole driving force of the gospel.  When Jesus heals the sick, he tells them that it is their faith in God that has made them well.  When he preaches the kingdom of heaven, he says, “let those who have ears to hear, listen.”  The words he spoke were the words of life, and yet he never wrote them down.  He gave them away, like seeds scattered on the ground; it was the people who received them, that remembered them, and told them to others, while others remembered other things he said, and passed them on, and it is only through this kind of crowdsourced transmission that we know anything about him at all. 
The most significant of all his words, judging by the frequency and devotion with which they are repeated, are the ones he said on the night before he was handed over to be killed, when he took bread and said, “this is my body, given for you.”  And he took wine and said, “this cup is my blood, poured out for you.”  They are words that are fulfilled when human beings take the substance of the earth—in bread,  in wine—and share it as the gift of God to them.  Eating and drinking together, they receive the life that was in Jesus.  They take it into themselves and they become what Jesus was in the substance of his being, from the moment of his birth: the gift of God to the world. 
This transformation is not something we can achieve by willing it to be so—we cannot even conceive how it happens.  We may not even notice until we have been eating this meal regularly, week after week, and year and year, for a long time, how it is changing us—making us less anxious about life, less fearful of death, more inclined to forgive and to ask for forgiveness, to be generous and caring toward others, more open to the promptings of the Spirit in our hearts, more entranced with the richness and the sweetness and the simplicity of the journey into God.
The gift of Christmas comes with such a simple sign—a newborn baby wrapped in bands of cloth and lying in a manger.  This simplicity makes it possible for anyone to receive it: even if we lack the means to decorate our home with a fragrant tree and shining lights and presents in colorful wrappings, even if we don’t have any home at all; even if there is no rich food and drink on our table, or any friends or family to gather around it; even if there is a chair at the table for the person dearest to us in the world sitting empty.  Every year, as the first, imperceptible turning of the earth toward the sun takes place, we come to this sign.  It reminds us that the gift of the presence of God is always new, always fresh, always available for those who care to listen--as soft, and quiet, and constant, as the breathing of a new-born child.        

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I am a priest in the Episcopal Church, and have been (among other things) an organic farmer and gardener, and a Zen monk. I have a lifelong interest in social and spiritual renewal on the basis of contemplative discipline, creative nonviolence, and ecological practice. In recent years my work has focused intensely on the responsibility of pastoral ministry in the humanistic, evangelical, and catholic branch of Christianity known as Anglicanism. I'm married with a daughter, and have three brothers and two parents.