Wednesday, November 26, 2014

Necessary freedom





“The Day of the Lord” is an ancient Biblical figure of speech.  It says that the God who made light arise in the darkness with the first word, will also have the last.  It says that the one who told Moses from the burning bush “I will be who I will be” was speaking the truth.  God will be who God will be and a day will come when God’s will and our becoming and the unfolding of the universe will be one and the same.   This was what gave the ancient Jews, and later, Christians, their great hope.  They saw a day of deliverance, when joy and thanksgiving would take the place of longing and suffering, and justice would no longer be deferred or denied.  It would be the day when, as the prophets said, “the earth shall be full of the knowledge of the glory of God as the waters cover the sea.” 

The promised Day of the Lord was also our ancestors’ greatest dread.  Because they knew that there could be no justice without judgment.  And they were deeply aware that as much as they might like to think that relative to some others they weren’t doing too badly, God’s justice would require nothing less than the absolute truth, of everything they had ever done, or thought, or said. 

Now in the modern world, this Day of the Lord no longer has the power to awaken much hope, or a lot of dread.  Maybe we think about the day of our own deaths with some mix of these feelings.  Perhaps we hope for a tunnel of white light that leads us to a reunion with the loved ones we have lost.  Maybe we dread the extinction of our ego consciousness and bodily life and fear that nothing will be left when they are gone.  But the culmination of history, in which God comes in person to set the whole creation to rights, to heal and restore all that is hurt, and lost, and broken, really doesn’t speak to us very persuasively any more.  Instead of hope or dread, what it mostly evokes in us is a kind of embarrassment.

It’s not hard to understand why.  We are painfully aware of a long history of the use of this image to threaten and cajole, to make people fearful and guilty, and then to play on their feelings to manipulate and control them.  Quite apart from the vengeful glee that some folks take in the extravagant and sometimes lurid visions of Biblical apocalypse, and even more than the low comedy of preachers who make precise predictions of the End that is near and wind up with egg on their faces when the fateful date passes with no more than the usual crimes and cruelties, I think that what makes us most uncomfortable about this day of the Lord is the shade it throws on our autonomy.

Because at the heart of our world view is the idea that we modern human beings have broken free.  The faith of our civilization is that God, if there is one, will not decide our destiny, as a species or as individual persons.  We have taken control of our fate, and will become what we create.  Our ever-expanding scientific learning and its rational application to society and the natural world, will guide the endless forward march of progress.  Advances in pharmacology, with the right attitude and therapeutic technique, will make us relaxed, confident, and happy all the time.  If we run into roadblocks we will remove them, with no divine intervention required.

Or, if we are one of those who entertain the thought of a shadow on the horizon, it is because of human factors that have gotten out of control.  Some do imagine a future of overpopulation and resource exhaustion, climate catastrophe, nuclear apocalypse, and such things, but if there is to be a reckoning it will be our reckoning with what we have done.  And the thought that God might lift this curse from us, or that these might be signs of some inevitable and irreversible transformation, seems infantile, the worst kind of religious delusion.

So it makes us embarrassed to read scriptures that suggest that there is another agenda at work here, one that is proceeding without regard to what we had planned or what we have feared.   We don’t want to consider that even though we do not comprehend the ultimate purpose of our own existence, there is one, and it will reckon with us, whether we reckoned with it, or not.  And we certainly don’t care to hear that it is there for us to find in the Bible.

I have a guilty little secret to tell you.  On the day I was ordained to the priesthood, right at the beginning of the ordination service, I knelt on a cushion at the altar rail at Grace Cathedral in San Francisco, along with eight other people.  And the bishop came to each of us in turn, and the archdeacon of the Diocese of California held out a pen and a stiff folder containing a piece of paper for me to sign.  And there, in front of the bishop, and my family, and a few hundred other clergy and lay witnesses, I signed my name to a declaration that read: “I do believe the Holy Scriptures of the Old and New Testaments to be the Word of God, and to contain all things necessary to salvation.”

Which I find to be a really elegant, and very Anglican, way of handling this sensitive but crucial matter.  You notice it doesn’t say that all the words of the Bible are the words of God, just that the whole thing altogether is the Word.  It doesn’t even foreclose the possibility that there might be things outside of it that can be extremely helpful.  It just says that everything that you really need to know is there.  It suggests that there is something necessary and inevitable about the Bible—again that embarrassing threat to our autonomy—but it also suggests that we have the freedom to discover for ourselves what is in it that we need.

That combination of necessity and freedom pretty well describes the path that the Bible asks us to take, what the Prayer Book ordination rite calls “salvation.”  On the one hand there is the warning that the things we are pursuing are not the things that really matter, and the things that do matter will be all that’s left standing in the end.   On the other hand, it says, here’s what you need to know to get back on track.  But instead of spelling it out for us in a simple formula, the Bible gives us rules about agricultural practices, and racy love poetry.  It gives us political polemics and grief-stricken laments, puns and proverbs, histories and folktales, dreams and nightmares.  Most of all it gives us a story. 

And a story that is moving towards an end is a story that means something.  It is always open to new interpretation and new information because it has faith in the skill and wisdom of the supreme author, to tie up all the loose ends.  That hope is what gives ultimate importance to all the myriad details of the story itself.  It says our lives have meaning, and the actions we take matter, and that we are more than bubbles drifting on the surface of the void, waiting to our turn to burst.  We are part of God’s story, with significance not just for this fleeting moment but for all eternity.

That suggests a lot of responsibility, but it is a responsibility that comes along with an extraordinary freedom.   This is the freedom of the apostolic communities, who found in the life and death and resurrection of Jesus a new way to imagine the whole story, from beginning to end.  They saw that the Day of the Lord will be his day, the full revelation of his purpose to gather people from every family, tribe, language and nation into the kingdom that is already present in his body and blood.  This is also the freedom of the slaves in the Gospel parable, whose master entrusted them with huge sums, and then went away and left them to do with it what they will.  It is a big responsibility, but it is only too much for the one who fears and distrusts the master, the one who buries his treasure in a hole in the ground, because he thinks that not being punished is the best he can hope to do.

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I am a priest in the Episcopal Church, and have been (among other things) an organic farmer and gardener, and a Zen monk. I have a lifelong interest in social and spiritual renewal on the basis of contemplative discipline, creative nonviolence, and ecological practice. In recent years my work has focused intensely on the responsibility of pastoral ministry in the humanistic, evangelical, and catholic branch of Christianity known as Anglicanism. I'm married with a daughter, and have three brothers and two parents.